I blog to share what life is like after child loss.
I blog to fulfill my life of being a mother to three boys and this is how I mother Matthew. I tend to his grave site, I tend to this blog and I tend to my book in his memory.
I blog to share about his life, his death and all things that have come along with it.
I promised myself when I started this blog I would remain true to the rawness and reality of losing Matthew and I will continue to do so.
It isn't pretty sometimes, but it's always real.
After losing Matthew, I didn't want to read books that told me I was going to be okay, I wanted real life people to tell me that it was okay not to be okay. Because I wasn't okay!
I wanted to see them surviving after their loss. I wanted to see the good and the bad because I already knew there was a lot of bad.
I wanted to know if I wasn't okay, it was okay.
That's why I share here on my blog.
It is okay not to be okay and it is okay to be okay. Some days you will, some days you won't. And no matter what, it is okay.
I am a survivor of a uterine rupture that almost claimed my life and took my son's life. It is difficult. I grieve. I miss him. I share that here.
I share my heart, my family and the joys and sorrow that we have faced and are facing with life after loss.
I blog to help others for in helping others, I find great joy, and finding great joy of being Matthew's Mama is truly a blessing to my heart!
Thank you for reading!