Let's see, new puppy, need I say more? Will got a puppy from his Uncle Todd and Nay Nay... He has wanted one for so long and has worked really hard to get one. He has done extremely well in school and we knew it was time to say "yes!" Big smiles from Will! Her name is Penny! Yep, Penny! I told him "Will, that is so sweet to name her Penny! Is it because of the penny I give to you boys before baseball games?" (I give the boys a penny before every baseball game since Matthew has passed and they put it in their pocket to have a piece of Matthew's memory on the field with them, so of couse I thought he was being sentimental!) He said, "No Mom, it's like a girl Penny!" (like Penny and Sheldon) Oy vey! Let's just say his Uncle Todd could have had The Big Bang Theory on a time or two! (no, I do not let him watch that show!) Anyhow, her name, Penny! She has brought smiles and lots of cleaning floors to our lives!
We recently had family night at school and RW & and were excited to see Will's work and Nathan's History Project on display.
Will was super excited to show us his work as well! We were in his class looking at his folder and then came THE JOURNAL! I love, love, love kindergarden journals!!! Seriously, cannot help but love the way they write and sound out words! I love to look through Nathan's still! And when I get Will's at the end of the year, will love having both of them side by side for this mama to walk down memory lane!
Okay, so here is the part I really love! As Will showed us his journal, you could see the progression of his letters and thoughts come alive and as we turned the pages the drawings and the words begin to have more clarity. We smiled and laughed at the things he wrote and then I saw this... and I was like "AWE!"
Of course, I am sporting a mohawk in the pic and only for Will would I wear one! :) (big mama grin!) I tell you that because I was elated that I was able to go to the school that evening because I have had to miss so much because of my injuries. I really cherish every moment I am able to be present at things as this.
Then we walked to the gym to see the Science, History and Reading Fair projects. Nathan had worked really hard on his History Project and I couldn't wait to see it on display. When we walked into the gym, his teacher told us he had won first place in his category! We were thrilled and proud of the work he put into the project.
When we left the school, we headed to the baseball field where Nathan was practicing. Once again, I felt very, very grateful to be there in that moment watching Will run around the bleachers and Nate on the field. I was sitting in the car completely aware of how blessed I was to be there. Completely.
When we got home from the school that night, I snapped this photo of Nathan with his project and when I hugged him quickly knew I needed to find a thermometer. His temp, 101.1. He was sick.
So, off to the shower and bed he went and he would stay all weekend very under the weather with flu like symptoms and a fever. Soon after, RW was in the bed too!
So, here I was, feeling GREAT and Nate and RW were in bed...! That never happens!
Sunday morning, I took care of them while they were on the couch coughing and sneezing and fevers blazing and then that afternoon, Lynette was taking Will to the parade. Well, I didn't want to miss that with Will, so I made sure the sick boys were settled and got dressed to spend the afternoon with my lil' man! I was walking out of the door and I looked on the couch at RW and Nate wrapped in the blankets and I couldn't help but think this is the first time I have left feeling great leaving them home sick. It is usually the other way around.
I was so happy that I was able to go and see the smile on Will's face! That I didn't have to miss this! And that I had had such a great week of not missing stuff!
Monday afternoon, Will had practice for the school talent show. He did so great practicing his drums on the stage. I didn't miss that either! :))) I just love it! And I took him for not one, but two ice creams after!
Believe me, it is such a big deal to me when I don't miss something!
Will did AWESOME in the school talent show! He won 3rd place! I love to watch him play the drums! (yes, we have a stage built in our home for him!) ;) This is a video of him practicing for the big night!
I am blessed... grateful that God has given me the strength and the fight within to stand and to continue to make memories with my boys and family. I am grateful I am feeling good and able to run after Penny while Will is at school. (I will tell you that she does get a bow or two in her hair though!) For sure! Hot pink nail polish is next! She is a guard dog in training, and she is going to be looking fabulous while she is on patrol on this hill!
And you guessed it... Dr. Seuss had a birthday at school and this mama got to go and cook some GREEN EGGS AND HAM! I had a blast listening to the kids (and myself) saying yuck! I admit, I have been a mama for almost 13 years and it was just yesterday that I tasted green eggs and ham! And we ALL liked it!
Another memory... another smile and another notch in my mommy belt! GRATEFUL!
Will is still on cloud 9 because he finally has a "dog of his own!" And I am still in awe at being here! Being with my family, being with my boys and being with RW!
Ohmygosh! I almost forgot to talk about shoes! Whew! Told you I was going to be all over the place today!
See these shoes? Yep, those are on my feet! The feet that I can't feel! If my doctors are reading this... LOOK AWAY, LOOK AWAY! ;) My mom bought them for me last week and I had the perfect event to wear them to! Pink Heart Funds, Evening in PINK! What a beautiful job my friend JoAn Nicely, founder of PHF, has done for breast cancer survivors! Wow, I was blown away by the event. For more info, see Pink Heart Funds. I cannot say enough about PHF! That's another blog day! JoAn was so kind when I lost most of my hair (after losing Matthew) and she gave me my first wig... That kindness lives on in her and in PHF! I will never forget it!
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| God knows how much I LOVE heels! I am so grateful I was able to wear them and walk around! That is crazy! If I listened to all the things my doctors say I shouldn't do, I would never have any fun and I would look like a total grandmaw all of the time! ;) |
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| Sis and I at Evening in Pink |
Life is short. Life is HARD!
I can testify to both.
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| Nathan was just 5 years old when we laid his little brother to rest... today he stands taller than me, with strong arms and a beautiful heart that is full of compassion as he is growing into a young man of God. He has been through so very much in his 12 years... I know God has some pretty amazing plans for him! |
I heard a pastor say the other day that if you can just hold on to God and to each other during the most tragic times in your lives, your marriage will be stronger than ever because of it. I know that to be true. I have lived it, RW has lived it... and on March 6th, we will be celebrating 14 years of marriage! I can promise that when we said for better or worse we had no idea the worst would be attending the funeral of our own son nor did we know that the better would be the gift of our little Will! God knew it all! And he knows what tomorrow holds! He knows the better and the worse before it comes and is preparing us, whether we know it or not, for all that is in store for our lives.
Our constant is our God, ALWAYS!
There's a song that says "I've been through enough to know that he'll be enough for me!" How many of you can amen that one? Whatever our day brings, God is enough and I have honestly been through enough to say that! Amen!
Oh I could go on and on tonight, however I hear the rumblings of little Will and Nate... I think it is time to blow the whistle and send them to separate corners! ;) But one more rambling before I close, You all know I use XOXO all of the time as a term of endearment, and I found Will's writing tablet on the counter with this written on it. (big mama grin)
I think I need to go and show this to them as they are going to their separate corners! ;)
Grateful mama signing off with lots of XOXO's to all of you!
LCW
The photo with you and Nathan at the cemetery is priceless. You can tell his heart is full of compassion. Amazing post full of honesty.
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