When I woke up this morning, my news feed was full of condolences and sad faces with the death of two people within our community.
And then the news that a sweet boy would be meeting Jesus soon.
My heart broke.
Sadness and grief tunneled through my heart and soul.
It seems so not fair.
This brings me to my knees for his family and for all of these families that are suffering today...and always.
Sometimes I beg God not to let me feel this way when I see babies passing because it hurts my heart so very much and brings such raw emotions back when we lost Matthew. But in the same breath, I know that God has given me compassion for these precious families and He has given me a heart for these hurting mamas and that is a gift that I cherish and I do not take it lightly.
As much as it hurts, it would hurt more if I walked away or turned my head from the heartache.
I cannot and will not.
I will continue to love and encourage these mamas and continue the journey of Facets of Life in memory of my sweet son.
When I hear the news that a child has passed away, there is a great pain within my heart for the "right now" and the days ahead for the parents, but the long term really hits my heart the most. The passing of the days without their child, the missed moments, the birthdays, the holidays, the back to schools, the...ALL of it. The rest of their lives...every season change...ALL of it.
The first few months after Matthew passed I was in shock, disbelief and also was so sick. That the latter days, the more time passed, the more my heart ache.
So already, those that are saying goodbye today or yesterday, my mind is thinking about them at the holidays...and for the rest of their lives.
I am so sorry.
I am so sorry anyone knows this pain or that anyone has to say goodbye.
The journey of child loss is so difficult and it has many travelers...I wish it were different.
I send many prayers today to all of the families that are suffering the loss of a loved one and special hugs to the mamas out there who need one!
So, so many of the kids I've been following have died recently. It just makes my heart ache for those mamas and daddy's! People have asked me why I follow so many "sad kids". I can't not follow. Not when I know what it's like to bury my baby. I can pray. God WILL listen. The answer might not be what we want for here and now, but I believe in His grace and the hope He gives! This weekend I went to Women of Faith. It was awesome! Everyone had something that spoke directly to my heart. That also means it was Hard! Exhausting and emotional. 3 weeks 4 days. Sully's 3rd birthday. Countdown
ReplyDeleteYes, you are so right! We can pray! Amen for God's grace and the hope that lives in our hearts! I bet Women of Faith was awesome! I think you need to blog about it! :))) Love you sweet lady! And hugs...remembering your lil' Sully!!! (counting down with you mama!) XO!
DeleteAlso, sorry about my rant. Praying for rest and peace for you. For even a short reprieve from the neuropathy. Hugs ❤❤
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Thinking of you and Matthew and Kaden and his parents. I wish none of us had to live in a world without our child/children. Sending you hope and hugs.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and Matthew and Kaden and his parents. I wish none of us had to live in a world without our child/children. Sending you hope and hugs.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and Matthew and Kaden and his parents. I wish none of us had to live in a world without our child/children. Sending you hope and hugs.
ReplyDeleteDiana is my friend, she helped keep my heart afloat when we lost our third baby at 19 weeks last March. She has such a kind, compassionate heart. I can't imagine the pain, the anger, the utter despair of losing a baby that you thought would be coming home in mere days. I just keep praying that God will wrap them in His peace and carry them through this tragedy. It's too much for one family, it's just too much.
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