When I woke up this morning, my news feed was full of condolences and sad faces with the death of two people within our community.
And then the news that a sweet boy would be meeting Jesus soon.
My heart broke.
Sadness and grief tunneled through my heart and soul.
It seems so not fair.
This brings me to my knees for his family and for all of these families that are suffering today...and always.
Sometimes I beg God not to let me feel this way when I see babies passing because it hurts my heart so very much and brings such raw emotions back when we lost Matthew. But in the same breath, I know that God has given me compassion for these precious families and He has given me a heart for these hurting mamas and that is a gift that I cherish and I do not take it lightly.
As much as it hurts, it would hurt more if I walked away or turned my head from the heartache.
I cannot and will not.
I will continue to love and encourage these mamas and continue the journey of Facets of Life in memory of my sweet son.
When I hear the news that a child has passed away, there is a great pain within my heart for the "right now" and the days ahead for the parents, but the long term really hits my heart the most. The passing of the days without their child, the missed moments, the birthdays, the holidays, the back to schools, the...ALL of it. The rest of their lives...every season change...ALL of it.
The first few months after Matthew passed I was in shock, disbelief and also was so sick. That the latter days, the more time passed, the more my heart ache.
So already, those that are saying goodbye today or yesterday, my mind is thinking about them at the holidays...and for the rest of their lives.
I am so sorry.
I am so sorry anyone knows this pain or that anyone has to say goodbye.
The journey of child loss is so difficult and it has many travelers...I wish it were different.
I send many prayers today to all of the families that are suffering the loss of a loved one and special hugs to the mamas out there who need one!