Sometimes & Always...

Sometimes I cry

Sometimes I laugh

Sometimes I dream and don’t want to wake up

Sometimes I cannot sleep

Sometimes breathing is a daunting task

Sometimes faith is hard to grasp

Sometimes I am so sad

Sometimes I am so angry

Sometimes I am scared

Sometimes I am brave

Sometimes I don’t want to be

Always, I love you

Always, I miss you

Always, you are with me

Always, I have hope… always.

Always, I know I will see you again…

Always, with each day that comes and goes, I am one day closer to seeing you again

Sometimes that makes me cry because I wish it were today

Always, (after the tears) it makes me smile because I know that day will come

Always, I am your mother

Always, I love to see butterflies

Sometimes I cry when they fly away

Sometimes I love seeing their little wings take off into the blue skies

Always, I wish you were here

Always, I wonder how tall you would be

Always, I am so grateful to be your mother

Sometimes I feel guilty that I am here and you are not

Always, I want you back... ALWAYS.

When my sometimes and always’ come and go… I know it is okay to be in that moment…

And sometimes that is crying,  but always, it is hoping. 

Hoping tomorrow is a day that I will see a butterfly, a rainbow, or be able to catch the raindrops on my tongue with your brothers...

Hoping tomorrow we will be able to share your story again... your life, and our love for you.

Hoping that when I sleep I will see you and when I wake up I will feel you...

I love you Matthew Clark Weatherly!  You are my inspiration, my heart and my precious baby boy! ALWAYS!